Can't sleep? May as well blog!

Soooo I guess my life hasn't been all that interesting lately or i'd be utilizing this blog more! But really, I totally forgot about it till Megan sent me a link to hers, so at least i'm blogging now! First of all, I really hate that my url is "funeraldirector87" Man, I wish i'd known funeral services wasn't the long term plan for me or i'd have chosen another, more appropriate name. But alas..

Right now the biggest thing on my mind is the H1N1 "pandemic". The media has got people absolutely fucking paranoid that this is the thing that is going to kill us all. Most people don't even know what is so different about the virus, but they're bloody terrified. This fear, I feel, Is completely 100% unfounded. This virus is not new, there have been outbreaks before that everyone was convinced was gonna wipe us out, yet here we all are! H1N1 Strains actually caused about half of the human flu infections in 2006. But you didn't hear about it then, so nobody was scared. What were we afraid of that year? SARS? Terrorists? We live in a culture of fear. Media is twisting the facts about this virus, and to me, that is a very risky idea. People are no longer looking into things for themselves; forming their own opinions, taking responsibility for their own health. Did you know that during that average flu season we lose about 300 people a day due to complications, but the H1N1 virus only kills an average of only 80 a day. Bet the news didn't tell you that! The average person should be more concerned with the regular flu bug killing them! So if you are reading this, PLEASE I urge you...do your homework. Don't believe everything you hear. Be informed. Know your options. Don't live in fear. Don't be a brainless follower.

Long weekends = wonderfull

This weekend was the labour day long weekend. Now most of the time I hate long weekends, it's just an extra day of boring...but this weeekend was wonderful. Friday night Dylan & I hosted an end of summer/fareh is in town bash in the backyard, which was really fun. Saturday DYl & I went to African lion Safari (aka the best place ever) We saw the giraffes and goats, but some of the animals were not out because of the time of year. That was a little disappointing but what are you gonna do? Then Sunday I had to work 10-6, and after Doug & Carla took us out for a late birthday dinner at Kampai. MMM sushi=amazing. And yesterday Dyla, Steve & I went for a 2 hour hike near mt. albion, which was so fun. It's been so long since i've done it. It felt so nice to be outside and active. Need to do that more often for sure! And to make it all even better, the weather was beautiful with no rain. So yea, this weekend rocked. And after so many shitty weather weekends it's like the summer was like "fine, here..have fun"



On a completely unrelated topic, my poor kitty has been limping for a few days now. I'm worried but not at the same time. She's still doing her usual jumping and stuff, but the fact that she's limping obviously isn't good. I'm going to call the vet tommorrow and see what they suggest.

I've never felt so lost

Since I have been at Bay gardens my love of funeral service has diminished. I hate the fakeness, and how I can't be myself. I am a happy, easy going person, and that is not what a funeral director has to be. I embalmed my first autopsied body the other day, and was more excited to see what was in the fridge at the morgue and what was in the viscera bag then actually embalming the guy. PS-Joelle and the licence Liz couldn't find the axillary artery and both looked for it twice, and I found it in less the 5 minutes :P It felt amazing to root around inside someone like that. And seeing the hollowed out cranium from the inside was just amazing. But it really got me thinking when I wanted to dump out the viscera and go through it more then I even wanted to embalm. For so long embalming has been all I wanted to do, and now I feel like it just isn't enough for me. I wish i could handle university, and go to school for forensic science or something like that. Really I just want to do autopsies or at least help with them, and I have no idea how to do that! That information isn't exactly out there for all to see. I think I may call the general hospital tomorrow and speak with someone from the morgue and see if they can point me in the right direction. I really can't stand feeling the way I do because i've been so used to having my whole life planned out, and now it's all gone to shit.